Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Something new in this new year...

I'm tired. It's very early here, but it seems as though my family has been going for hours and hours. I finally convinced myself to flop out of bed at 8:45 and to be honest, I felt like it was entirely too early but I was proud of my grown up early morning self. So here I sit, in the floor of the study room. "Doing what?" you may ask. Well allow me to enlighten you. I am sitting in the floor, macbook in hand, helping my father find a background that he likes for his new blog! That's right ladies and gentlemen, as scary as it is, my father decided to finally bite the bullet and get himself a blog! My only fear is that reading his blog and mine would cause a person to recognize some similarities between the two of us which I have strived to cover up for many many years. However, I believe that I am well prepared to make halfway legitimate excuses for the similarities that will surely ease my mind.  Regardless, I am looking forward to his blog as my dad has some truly fascinating thoughts and opinions. It will be nice to see them in a text format. So today, I give you "Light the Darkness" which can be found at "" There isn't anything on there yet as we are battling the layout situation, but I'm sure it will be excellent once it is up and running. (Which could be a while because apparently he is where I get my ability to sit at the computer for hours upon hours until I locate exactly what I was looking for.) I hope everybody has a splendid day and a wonderful and safe New Year! 

Saturday, December 27, 2008

a family of 3!

Congrats Chris and Melissa on the new addition to your family! Its so exciting! I still haven't gotten to see her in person yet, but the picture was absolutely adorable! Just wanted to post a quick congratulations! Hope everyone has had a very merry Christmas and have a very safe and happy new year!

Sunday, December 21, 2008


so basically, there isn't a point behind this post. if you are looking for substance you may want to look elsewhere. in this post you will not find one of my metaphors, a story, or even an update. what you will receive, should you choose to accept it by further reading, is pure, raw, unadulterated nothingness straight from my mind. nothing in this post really has anything to do with anything else except its what is going on in my mind at this very moment. hats why it won't have substance-because i am thinking too hard. i really don't write well when i try to think about what i am writing. its much better if i just go. don't slow down. yet, sometimes that can be a problem too...going too fast. but i believe i explained all of those frustrations in my post about why i feel that writing is better than blogging. actually the only reason why i even thought to post on here is because i was looking at that ancient, decrepit page that no one really ever thinks about anymore...oh gee, what's it called? oh yeah, myspace. well now, myspace is really more like myteenytinypigeonholethatnobodyevervisitsbecausetheypreferfacebookbutthanksforvisiting.
but it does have a bunch of fascinating things from my past. posts i never even think about anymore, old pictures, that sort of thing. i like revisiting the past. not all of it is nice or friendly...not all of my days have been filled with daisies and puppies and sunshine, but as dark as they were...thats just it...they were. they're not anymore. they're gone. and i have seriously learned a lot from those days. anyways, like i said...not much here to look at. i need to be going. the ridge awaits!!! Christmas Rock Night!!!! i am so extremely excited! hope everyone has a splendid day!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

no comparison...

So as much as i love blogging (and trust me, i like it lots) it just doesn't compete with actually sitting down and writing on paper. I think I like it better simply because well...there are a lot of reasons, and when reasons start to stack up...what do we do? Make a list. 

Why I prefer writing on paper to blogging:
1. Things are so easily deleted on the computer and sometimes i find that i delete a really cool thought before i mean to and then its gone...i usually can't remember what it was later, but even if its erased on paper, i can slow down enough to get my thoughts together.
2. My notebook is private. Most of what i write in there i really wouldn't mind sharing, but its knowing that if it does take a very personal turn somewhere along the way, i didn't lose anything. i didn't lose any time and i didn't lose any thoughts. If i start posting a blog, i feel like it should be published, but if it gets too personal, chances are i want to keep it private for a while. I think there's something to be said about personal thoughts. A lot of times, I need to get real with myself before I can get real with the rest of the world, and I don't think that's easy. Maybe its just me, but i doubt it. Sometimes the hardest person to be genuine with is yourself, but if you can't be honest with yourself, how can you ever be honest with other people, or with God? Wow...that was a really long reason...I forgot I was listing...this is one of the things that happens in the book a lot, and when i do it in there, i don't feel dumb like i do now.
3. Let's be honest, chances are, blogspot is a phase. In ten years, I probably won't be able to remember my URL much less my password. However, being the packrat that i am, I feel pretty certain that I can hang on to this book for a while. 
4. Books can be passed down. I hope that one day, somebody will receive my book. It really doesn't matter how they get it, I just hope it's somebody that will find value in it and that will be able to benefit from it. Hopefully, they will pass it down and it will become a habit to pass the book down and will encourage those people to start writing and pass their books down. I just hope that God will somehow deliver it to the hands of a person that will learn something from it...anything.

I think that's it for that I've been thinking about it, I think I want to go write. Funny how that works...I just had an idea for what might end up being yet another spiritual growth metaphor. If i get enough of those, I may start a separate blog for my God thoughts. Anyways thanks for reading these, I know i'm not always the most interesting of humans, but I appreciate your interest. Even if it's out of sheer boredom, you still chose this page, and that means a lot! Goodnight guys!

Monday, December 8, 2008

high stress=high praise

"It's beginning to look a lot like finals, everywhere I go. Take a look at the panic and stress, everyone looks a mess. With late night crams and coffee slams to go..."

That's what I have been singing for the past few days. My own version of getting into the finals spirit. But i'm learning to be of good cheer, not just because it is the holidays, but also because God rewards diligence. I know if i study hard, and put my focus on Him as well, that God will reward that and will bless me for it. I am most nervous about my final on Wednesday. 8:00 am...algebra. To be honest, i'm terrified. Right now I am on that line of a high D or low C, that sounds really pathetic but I'm not afraid to claim my miserable math abilities. I just hope to pass that stupid final. I always do really bad on things in that class (clearly my grades reflect that) but it isn't because i don't care, it has more to do with me being so intimidated by the course. I mean couldn't i just take an english final instead? That would be amazing. But anyway I was just checkin out Jarrett's new blog (which is AWESOME!) so i thought i would update a little. Please be in prayer for my finals that are left. My Psychology one tomorrow at 10:30 and my Algebra one on Wednesday at 8:00! My theater monologue went wonderfully, thanks to all who were in prayer for that! Have a wonderful night, I have to go study study study! Good night!

Monday, December 1, 2008


So there is a major issue that I have been struggling with for a while now. I thought maybe it would just go away or solve itself, but it hasn't and its becoming painfully obvious that it won't vanish on its own. So tonight, I thought I would come out and talk about this very troubling occurence, a crime against humanity, if you will. I'm not sure if there are any solutions to this problem, but please if you come up with any ideas, don't hesitate to inform me of them. I first noticed this problem towards the beginning of the year...I'm not sure of the exact date, but I know it was only a few short weeks into this semester. In all honesty, I don't think that I recognized the seriousness of the problem initially, but now it's evident just how frequently these vile actions occur. It is beginning to bother be to a magnitude which only those who have been tortured themselves could begin to fathom. Why do human beings do this to one another? Where is the justice? Where is the peace? But I have come to realize that there isn't any. No matter, what I do, no matter where I go, I will always be victim to the harsh and judgemental looks of others when I sit in a public place and...write. It's almost as though writing is a completely foreign concept to others. I really do get the most bizarre looks. Just tonight I was at Chic-fil-a, and I broke out my little book and began to write while my friend began to talk to some other people, and you would have thought that I was doing something completely insulting. To inform you of the exact way that I felt in the moment, here is a quote from my darling little book. "I also love the looks I get when I sit down and write in a public place. Its like a nudist just going somewhere and sitting down...only it's a lot more decent and I can't be arrested." So I ask you ladies and gentlemen, how long are we going to sit idly by and let this injustice continue? When will we band together and stand up to the forces that keep pushing us down? Now is our time!!!

haha. yeah so anyways, that's all i got! just a little silliness....i'm a bit hyper after drama! hope everybody has a fantastic evening! Lots of love!!!

---romans 12.2